Dear Mom and Dad,
It's been 17 years since you guys messed up my hospital papers when you accidentally wrote Jennifer Lopez instead of Jennifer Hernandez. It seems like that's how it's been ever since. Not me feeling like Jennifer Lopez (LOL) but rather you guys messing up. I'm not saying it's a bad thing because everyone messes up. In a way I'm glad that certain things have happened between the family because those situations have made me who i am today. And i don't blame you for any qualities i may not be content with. I only partially blame you for teaching me all that you know and raising me to become a dependent child. All that you know is not the truth and sometimes you guys forget that. We have begun to think in distinct ways and no one will ever be right when on opposing sides. I love what you've been able to teach me and I love that you guys care so deeply about me but I'm scared that one day you'll blame me for wanting to be my own person and create distance between us. But you of all people should know that it's as hard to be the parent as it is to be the child and let go.
Sincerely,
Pumba
Thursday, April 2, 2015
Friday, January 23, 2015
Frankl-y Speaking
Throughout the whole book, there was no part that struck me so much as the question on the first page of the preface. Why do you not commit suicide?
So many are the times that I've heard people complain about their "terrible" lives and so many are the times that I've unjustly judged them in secret. Of course I will never understand what they go through or how they process what they do but I do understand that they are not aware of what life really is. It's not about going out and finding a meaning whether it be a hobby or a person but about letting a meaning come to you. I believe that the unexpected is what comes with the greatest outcome. Most of the time when we search, it's harder to find. rather than when we aren't looking, what we want tends to find us. So is there a meaning to our lives? Yes. A different one for each but we must let it find us. And while we're waiting we shouldn't be upset that that everything is temporary but more so grateful. Sure the good things are going to come and go. But so will the bad, and I believe that's one of the greatest gifts of life.
Of course not every person contemplates suicide considering how extreme of an option that is, but most do. Sadly those who go through with it miss an opportunity at finding a happiness so great that only they could understand. I'm thankful for those who don't because they realize that there's something waiting for them on the long road ahead. And we have to remember, it's a long and broken road.
So many are the times that I've heard people complain about their "terrible" lives and so many are the times that I've unjustly judged them in secret. Of course I will never understand what they go through or how they process what they do but I do understand that they are not aware of what life really is. It's not about going out and finding a meaning whether it be a hobby or a person but about letting a meaning come to you. I believe that the unexpected is what comes with the greatest outcome. Most of the time when we search, it's harder to find. rather than when we aren't looking, what we want tends to find us. So is there a meaning to our lives? Yes. A different one for each but we must let it find us. And while we're waiting we shouldn't be upset that that everything is temporary but more so grateful. Sure the good things are going to come and go. But so will the bad, and I believe that's one of the greatest gifts of life.
Of course not every person contemplates suicide considering how extreme of an option that is, but most do. Sadly those who go through with it miss an opportunity at finding a happiness so great that only they could understand. I'm thankful for those who don't because they realize that there's something waiting for them on the long road ahead. And we have to remember, it's a long and broken road.
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